I’m From Louisville, KY – Video Story.

by jennifer tullock

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I’m Jennifer Tullock and I’m from Louisville, Kentucky.

The thing about Louisville is, there’s a weird dichotomy of intense Christian culture–intense Southern Christian culture–and a sort of progressive, artsy scene. So I grew up wedged between those two and felt constantly pulled by them. I don’t have much contact with people from Louisville now, so it’s funny…Facebook is such a strange world now, the Internet is such a strange world, that I’m very open in my life about how I live it and who is in it and what I do, and so I have Internet contacts and that way people from my old life…

About two months ago, I had posted a link to a poem by this queer poet activist named Staceyann Chin who is amazing and it was about marriage equality. And I posted it on my wall not thinking of course about the people who would be opposed to it. It’s Facebook, within its strange world. But I was Facebook with a man whose kids I’d been raised with in Louisville, and he wrote one of the nastiest, craziest responses to it, which basically said, “You don’t believe this crap, do you? I’m so sorry the world has gotten into your heart. I’m terrified for the sin you’re living in, I’m so glad my own children aren’t exacting this sort of rebellion in my home.” And I forgot–I’m so comfortable in my adult life, in my Brooklyn life, in my career, in my social life, that I forget that that’s where I came from, until that man brought me hurdling back towards that place and it gutted me. And I responded, I mean, I felt like I almost shouldn’t even dignify it with a response but I had to and I– My mother wrote me an email and she said, “You know, he’s speaking out of fear. And I’m sorry.” And this was a friend of hers.

I’d gotten a little cocky, to be honest, thinking I’m safe, I’m comfortable, and here, this man who I don’t really care about, or thought I didn’t care about, said these things to me and it just darkened my week.

jenJennifer Tullock is an actor and writer residing in Brooklyn. Her work has been featured at Second City, Broadway Comedy Club, and New York Fringe. She can currently be read as a contributor for brooklyntheborough.com. Her play “The Projectionist” will be presented this summer as part of the New York Stage and Film Festival.

4 Comments:

  1. What an ass.

    Facebook is funny in that you’re suddenly exposing your current life to people from an old life. I went to school in a pretty conservative place and was friends with several Mormons. At the time I thought nothing of it. Then after Prop 8 I posted pics from a protest in NYC in front of a Mormon temple, and someone from high school responded semi-angrily. Not in a mean way like your guy but she was still upset. We went back and forth after that with a brief, calm debate, but it was a bit off-putting. I really liked her in high school but I don’t see how I could be close friends with someone today who was against marriage equality.

    Thanks for the story.

  2. The saddest part? What they fear most is discovery, discovery of all the things hidden deep inside themselves that they feared others might disapprove of. Their personal discovery of the fact that they are not the full souled people they could have been because of the parts and pieces they consigned to eternal darkness.

  3. Hey Jennifer darlin’. I’m a 52 year old gay man here in Louisville. Your video is so beautiful, affirming and important. I was married for 20 years, married because the voice of the man who wrote you of echoed in my head. I’m now free. While there are many ignorant folks here, be proud to know that the influence of beautiful lesbian woman and men like you are changing people’s hearts here. Those negative voices are certainly now in the minority.

  4. Sometimes the past catches up, but dark days, dark people should be left behind. Try not to let this intrude, as hard as it may be. This guy deserves to be ignored and forgotten, while you deserve better.

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