I wake violently to the relentless ringing of my alarm clock. I stumble from my warm bed, only to find my toes greeted by a cold floor. “Seth…it’s time to go!” my moms voice echoes from down the stairs. The burnt dawn creeps through my shades. “Seth…let’s go” again echoes her voice. I pull on my pants. I smush my hair flat and I wearily walk down the stairs.
I step outside and I can hear the world speak and spit from my front stoop. The glow of the rising sun reminds me of how early it is. I get into the car with my mom. The clock reads 7:03. “Are you nervous?” my mom asks me. What do I have to be nervous about? It’s only routine. I reply with a dry “no”.
As I enter the door I am immediately ushered into a back room. They poke holes in my arm. They set me up to machines. Beep. Beep. Beep. The steady beat of my heart amplified for the world to hear. The doctor enters. A mask is placed robotically over my face. “Take deep breathes” the voice of an M.D. says to me. One. Two. Three. Four breathes. I’m out. I escape my current reality with the alternative life that are dreams. A world with vivid landscapes and impossibilities abundant. I awake from a dream I cannot recall. I feel my mouth. I feel where my wisdom has been ripped from my soft gum. It’s not too bad. I stand. I fall. I stand again, this time with the help of my mother. She helps me to the car. As I see the world in a blur, nothing goes through my mind. Nothing of importance anyways.
I get home. Exhausted. I wearily walk up the stairs. I head straight for my bed. Like an anvil, I fall onto my mattress. I’m out. Blink. Blink. Blink. I’m wide awake. I find that the light has been replaced with dark. 11:30 is written all over the face I stare into. I get up and head over to my computer. I turn it on. Immediately I hear the humming and clicking of the machinery within. I plug in. I log onto my profile at The Gay Youth Corner. Whats this? I have a message. “Hey, I checked out your profile. I think we’ll have a lot to talk about. Message me back!!” reads the message. Click! Click! Click! The sound of my fingers typing with vigor to a new friend. One. Two. Three hours go by. Still my fingers clicking away with vigor. At 3 o’clock in the morning we decide to say our goodbyes for the night. I turn off my computer. I flop onto by bed. Excited. My heart is a hummingbird. Once again the beat of my heart is amplified, not by machinery, but my love. This is the first day of my life…
This is the story of the day that I first talked to the man that I love. This day stands out in my mind for two reasons: The juxtaposition of my wisdom teeth being removed and finding love. And the fact that I didn’t find love, love found me. As you can tell I am a romantic. I hope I gave an accurate portrait of this wonderful and unprecedented day in my life.
I’m From Temecula, CA. “He asked me what I planned to do with my life, and at that point I really didn’t know. I conjectured that I might someday be in advertising. Yeah, that sounded sharp. Or maybe I’d go into medicine, whatever that meant. He said he’d thought about opening up his own business, becoming a master of capital. We were both so young. The night ended with us building the house whose framework had offered to accommodate our prattle. It would be colonial, but with a very modern feel. Lots of windows. Warm. That’s the night I met my first boyfriend.”
I’m From Yoakum, TX. “This was the moment and the perfect man was the one I got to say “I love you” to for the first time. It was amazing. That is when I knew for sure, not all guys were horrible and I was going to be happy. I didn’t know until then what love felt like, but I was glad he was the one I learned it from.”
I’m From Burtonsville, MD. “The reason I’m sharing this story is because our 1-year anniversary is coming up, I want him to see this, and I want us to understand what we have together. I want us to understand, because we will be going off to college soon. I want us to examine what we should do. I’ve never met anyone like him, I’m sure I never will again, in fact I don’t want to meet anyone else. I want to be with him. I know that if we are meant to be then no amount of land or water between us will stop us. People say to me that everything has its time and everything must come to an end, but not us, not us. We are eternity.”