I was around 14 when I discovered that I was gay. I just began feeling attracted to my classmates in a way I had never experienced before. Though the feeling was somehow exciting I was terrified because homophobia became more and more present at the same time. In a class of religion the teacher asked us to write on a sheet how we imagined heaven. Some guys wrote down, “No gay people.“
I accepted eventually that this is who I am and that I have to deal with it. I came out to my friends first, whose reactions were very positive. I also got a lot of support from my sister. Then I told my parents. It was difficult at first because of all the worries but they accepted it too.
After school I went to Frankfurt to study political science and romance languages. That’s where I met the love of my life. After two broken relationships I found the man with whom I want to grow old. The feeling is mutual so we got married in summer 2010. My mother had tears in her eyes at the wedding but they were tears of joy. She gave me the name Felix when I was born which is Latin and means “happy.” The meaning became true.
I hope that my story gives hope to those who struggle with their identity and their environment and that it shows them that as a gay person you can live a happy life as well.